I should be running right now

My phone rang at 5:55am. I saw the name and shouldn’t have answered it. I knew it wouldn’t be any good, but if he was calling me, it must be something important.

Here I sit at the dining room table an hour and a half later with support, troubleshooting an issue.

Gave Kurt the sandwiches I made and let him know what happened. I wish I was out there on the trail too, running through the woods, taking in the fresh air and views.

Perhaps later.

20160613 reading

“It makes no difference where arms come from; they circulate with brazen and virtually absolute freedom in many parts of the world,” Pope Francis told the United Nations World Food Program on Monday. “As a result, wars are fed, not persons.”


It seemed like a great idea when the International Olympic Committee announced that golf would return to the Olympic program in 2016 after an absence of 112 years. The world’s best golfers going for gold on a purpose-built course in Rio de Janeiro, with a global audience tuned in — it was the best thing for the sport since the demise of Sansabelt slacks.


The new comprehensive World Atlas of Artificial Night Sky Brightness has just appeared in Science Advances. Written by a group of distinguished scientists lead by Italian Fabio Falchi, it is a noteworthy accomplishment. The first atlas appeared in 2001, but was based on a less precise satellite measurement system. This latest atlas provides far more clarity.


wichita – monday of holy week

I’m sitting in my old office in Wichita, KS today. It’s the kids’ spring break and we came down to visit our family and friends.

This past weekend was Palm Sunday. I portrayed Jesus in Abiding Hope’s Passion play. I’ve never acted before and especially wouldn’t have ever thought I would be Jesus for something like that. It was a moving experience.

Portraying Jesus
Portraying Jesus

I was honestly surprised that I was asked to be a part of it, but when you’re asked, how do you say no to being Jesus?

Trail running and climbing

I’ve been reading a few of books on mountaineering and alpine climbing lately: Training for the New Alpinism, Extreme Alpinism and Mountaineering The Freedom of the Hills.

Training for the New Alpinism holds a lot of great ideas on how to train for being in the mountains, even if you’re not climbing super and fast. I’m reading these to get ready for the Bighorn Trail Run and climbing some 14ers this summer.

I’ve also been running a lot with Kurt to get ready for these. I feel a lot better about my run this summer than I did 2 years ago. I just need to stay healthy and keep increasing my distances. I already have much more trail experience than I did.

I need to lose a little more fat though before race time gets here. 205 is a lot of weight to carry for 52 miles. 😉

I bought a new hiking pack and lightweight jacket for climbing. This summer I am going to do Mt. EvansBeirstadtLongs Peak and Pikes Peak. This is something I am really looking forward to.

Why Boredom Is Anything But Boring – Scientific American

In studies of binge-eating, for example, boredom is one of the most frequent triggers, along with feelings of depression and anxiety. In a study of distractibility using a driving simulator, people prone to boredom typically drove at higher speeds than other participants, took longer to respond to unexpected hazards and drifted more frequently over the centre line. And in a 2003 survey, US teenagers who said that they were often bored were 50% more likely than their less-frequently bored peers to later take up smoking, drinking and illegal drugs.

Source: Why Boredom Is Anything But Boring – Scientific American

Moving forward

Today I registered for the Bighorn Trail Run 52 miler, something I attempted and DNFd in 2014 due to several reasons.

  • Poor timing/pacing during the run
  • Lack of trail specific experience
  • Lack of knowledge
  • Incomplete training

All shortcomings on my part that I could have changed if I worked harder and smarter.

Right now having experienced it once, I am better prepared for what is going to happen when I run it again in June. I’m also taking a longer term approach to the process with the ultimate goal of completing the 100 miler in 2017.

When I DNFd in 2014, I was crushed. I wanted to finish and that was my only goal. I wanted to show my kids anything is possible if you work hard enough. When I dropped from the race I was healthy and felt good. I dropped because I didn’t get to the first cut-off in time to change my shoes, take care of my feet, drink my gatorade and recharge mentally for a few minutes. I did make it through the checkpoint and started on up the trail.

Once I got home and people would ask me about the run, I was bitter. I was so mad that I didn’t finish, and people tell me running the 18 miles in the mountains was good, I didn’t feel the same. Running 18 miles wasn’t the goal. I’d done that before. I went to run 50+ miles through the mountains. I didn’t do any running for a while after getting back home.

I’m finally past my anger and moving forward. I had to accept that I just wasn’t fully ready for the task at hand and am grateful for the knowledge and experience I did gain.

I’ve sat down and written out my general plan and goals for the next 6 months. Added in different workouts. Some will get skipped or disappear due to life, but they exist to guide me to success. I have a running partner and I’ve already run more trail earlier in the process than I did the entire time before.

Moving forward is process though. Accepting and analyzing what happened before and then making the required changes. It’s mental.

The mind is primary.

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